Proverbs 20:24

Lately, I’ve been feeling extremely low. And I would say that a part of it has been because I’ve been doubting the steps I’m taking in my life. The devil’s been at work lately. Whether I’m in class or simply in my bed, the devil will try to come in my head and bring confusion and doubt. The season I’m in, although I’m still trying to define it, has been extremely rough. And most of it has been because of the weight I put on myself by trying to perfectly define what is it that I’m going to do with my life. Which is strange because, 2 weeks ago I was so convinced that I figured it all out. I wrote everything down to constantly remind me of it. Until, well until the devil came and put doubt in me. “Are you sure this is for you? You’re not made for this. Matter fact, there’s nothing you’re made for. You don’t even understand where you’e going Raissa, you don’t know anything. Stop here because you’re waisting your time.” I became so confused and unsure of where I’m going. I’m looking at where I am today and I found myself crying out to God “What does this all mean. WHERE ARE YOU BRINGING ME. It makes no sense Lord. I’m at the wrong place and I can’t see clear. I don’t think this is for me. I can’t do this. I’m confused. I don’t know anymore.” But then…wait a minute, since when does my life depend on ME? What happened to all those times you surrended to Him and you said ” I give myself away so YOU can USE me? And what about…all..those..times…you…

We are often confused by the events around us. Many things we will never understand, others will fall into place in years to come as we look back and see how God was working. And it’s funny because it’s not until now, as I’m writing this, that things are starting to make sense. Today I’m sharing this, and hoping that this proverb counsels us not to worry if we don’t understand everything as it happens. Instead, we should trust that God knows what He’s doing, even if His timing or design is not clear to us. I don’t know where you are today or what your life looks like right now, but the Lord wants you to be reassured of His direction in your life. It’s time for you to fallow Him. Close your eyes and just believe that He will not lead you where He won’t go. Impossible, you say? How do you know? How do you know until you give Him a chance to prove you wrong. After all, He did bring you all this way.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s