But it means nothing if You’re not here. All of this is worth nothing if I can’t feel You closer than before. I need You now… To pick me up from the ground and help me walk again, to help me carry the weight of season,to help me understand what is still so unclear. Help me see the path we are walking. Help me trust you even if I cannot see. Help me discern your words spoken in silence. Keep me together as you tare down my entire life. and rebuild it from scratch.