There are days like today where I wake up drowning in the presence of God. I wake up, and His presence is just so powerfully manifested that before I even get to step outside my room, I fall on my knees and begin to worship Him. Then, with a yielded heart I fall to my face. In that moment, words aren’t enough so I simply cry all the tears a human body can possibly contain, I break open my heart and poor it all over Him, the Lamb of God. In that moment, I hear Him delight in me with gladness. With His overwhelming love, He calms all my fears and quiets me. I hear Him rejoice over me with joyful songs, dancing over me. I’m so amazed by Him.
In Your presence, words have a whole other meaning. They are so much deeper and heavy, that I could promise you a scale would break if it was weighted. When I tell you I love you it means so much more than a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection. No, when I tell You I love you, I’m truly telling You, Lord,Lover, Father & Friend, I offer you the most precious thing you gave me on this earth which is my heart and life to guard ( proverbs 4:23) as well as everything in it to love and honour You. I want to waste my life and heart on You. When I say ” I worship You”, I’m really telling you, I’m there in the Throne Room joining the angels sing the same songs of holiness they’ve been singing unto you for eternity, I bow before your throne with the living creatures day and night. Yes Day and Night. There’s not a single hour, minute or second outside of this where I don’t want to be in the midst of your glory honouring You.
I’m not gonna lie, there are moments where I get caught up trying to calculate everything for my life an future. But You completely wrecked all my plans and make me walk blindfold like a child which gives me no other option than put all my trust in You. That’s what You do when we declare that we open our lives up to You. You come in and you build your kingdom here on earth, in our lives, in our hearts. You plant the perfect plan you wrote over our lives in the secret place when no one was watching. When I think about that, when I’m reminded of all the promises you spoke over me, I have no reason to be afraid. I feel safe and loved. There’s nothing outside of the barriers of your hand that gently holds me, there’s nothing outside of your unending love.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ( Jeremiah 29:11)
[ On my knees with tears all over my face] That’s all I want to do for living. I want to be here with You, day and night. Speak of You and of take delight in your faithfulness. That’s all I want to do for the rest of my life. Be able to sit still day & night in your presence and be with you: face to face, hand in hand, heart to heart. I love you.