Some days, I live with this constant friction whether I should keep my blog or not. To keep blogging or not. I logged in for the first in months and I saw the notification adivising me that the blog will have to be renewed within the next 2 days or else, I will lose my domain.
I don’t know if I’m over this part of my life. It felt so good once, if felt so amazing once. But now, I don’t know. I’m so busy with everything else that this is the last thing on my mind. But the thing is, if I lose this, where will all these documentations go? It’s such a hug part of me. It has hel[ed me grow so much. I wasn’t writing for people,I was truly writing for myself. It helped me heal, it helped me grow, process a lot of things.
Does this mean goodbye to all these nations who have enjoyed visiting my page daily? Or maybe, what if, it doesn’t have to be the end to all this. What if, it just has to be the beginning of something new. A new era with this blog. There’s a lot of growth in me. Im no longer the same little girl I was when i first started blogging 2 years ago. Yes 2 years ago. Already? I know. So crazy. Time flies so fast… But what if, this blog grows with me. I promised many of you out there that we’d walk throughout this process called life together, as our hearts grow. What if we’re really growing together. Realizing things together. Accomplishing things together. Breaking our barriers together. Overcoming things together, witnessing the Lord enlarged our limits, together. I love this idea. I don’t know how this change will take place to be honest. Because growth can be messy. Just like a teenager growing, leaving the embryo stage of life, and starting the next developing step. But, we’ll make it work. No, the Lord will make it work. In the sorting, in the letting go, in the process and shredding, I’ll make sure to keep writing and sharing. There’s a certain beauty that is captured in pain and suffering that allows other, to find comforting peace and hope in it.
I don’t know. There’s still so much I haven’t shared with all of you. A lot of revelations worth sharing and exposing. But how, is the question I’m still trying to resolve.